I am either about to start something really stupid or its something that’s will be a positive step in the right direction. I gave up working full time just over 3 years ago because I wasn’t coping working full time with the M.E. Plus the M.E was getting worse and no employer would understand days, weeks or months away sick. So I took the plunge and went self employed.
I love it. I get up when I can as mornings are normally the worse time for me, I then work as and when I can. If it’s a bad day I don’t push myself. There are a few downsides to working from home though.
It can seem like I am always working some days.
The kids (and friends) don’t always appreciate that there are times I do actually have to do work and their idea of quiet and mine isn’t the same.
There can be days I don’t talk to a normal human being.
Only takes a few customers paying a few days later than usual and I go into panic mode and spend too much time worrying over nothing.
So when my corner shop mentioned that she may have some hours coming up without thinking too deeply I said me, that I wanted the hours. It won’t be lots of hours but will mean it’s a guaranteed small amount of money in each week. I am petrified at the thought of going back out there in the big wide world. What if I can’t cope? Will I know if it’s just a bad day/week/month or will I be sensible and accept if I have taken on too much to admit it. Time will tell and I will keep you posted.